Personal Point of Paradox

This level was not as long as some of the others, but it said a LOT. I have many different thoughts and feelings after having watched this. It is a beautiful vision and I want to do all I can to bring it to pass, and get to the point where I can do much more to help it. I can remember how, as I read the Heirlooms for the first time, so often I would read something that struck me as self-evident, or I knew it to be true having learned it from experience. To clear some hurdles in my life to get to where I have to be – namely, retire my job and generate its income from elsewhere – is difficult and frustrating at times. I have not worked on marketing and reaching out to mentors and social skills in general, and must rectify that so I can be better and become more available for the SOS. But I am grateful for the opportunity that applying these teachings to my life represents. I thought today of what I might say to a cynic about this, and I probably would ask, So you think this is a waste? Go ahead and quit – and see what your life is like then. If you want a life of nothing to shoot for and no hope of it ever changing…just going thru the motions and playing out the string…knock yourself out. Personally, I have lived a life of mysticism at times and a life of not believing in anything at times and a life of dreams but no idea of how to get there or the means to do so. There is the punch line from the movie, “Braveheart”, which says, “Every man dies. Not every man really lives.” I am grateful to still be alive; it could have been different. I want to live – live out and realize my Friday Night Essence in Neospeak. It is agonizing at times not to be there yet, but any time of not going for it is not something I can accept any more.